basically sums up my whole 2010.

man, has this year been one hell of a ride. from the bad times; like doing some very shady things, reaching my lowest of the low, arguing with people i care about etc etc., to the good times; finding out who truly cared, who my real friends were, adventures and events like my debut and turning 18, building stronger bonds with those people i care about, and so on.

these past two years have been the hardest on my parents and i sincerely apologize to them for all the decisions i made that they did not approve of and for giving them countless migraines haha. as for this year, i am most thankful with every ounce of me for all that they’ve done in preparation for my debut. they took up most of the stress because they’re just so.. loving! and throughout all that, we have become closer than ever and their trust in me has solidifed in comparison to past years. im excited to turn the page for this new chapter of my life as an ‘adult’ because i know that they’ve raised me very well to become a mature young lady and i know that they’ll always be there to help me whenever i need it.

There’s gonna be those people in your life that you meet that you grow a close connection with that you know you’ll never forget. The ones that you laugh, cry, go through all the bullshit with, whether it’s theirs,yours or between the both of you. Sometimes you’ll hate each other, but by the end of the day you’re always gonna love them.
(via daniccadoll)

like every year, we find and sort who our true friends are and i, indeed, found my few. even though i didn’t hang out with the majority of them much, or even though there would be periods of time where we wouldn’t speak because of busy schedules or because, i admit, we would be on edge with annoyance, we still have that bond. that “like nothing ever happened” bond. and then there were also the friends that i became somewhat closer to along way. though we didn’t become the best of friends, i still saw their inner, caring, and trustworthy qualities. i’m so so blessed to have had an opportunity to share experiences with each individual. so much of my respect and love goes out to them. and also as in every year, i would like to say sorry to all the people i judged and hurt, where on purpose or not.
and then there are my cousins, who were constantly always there with full support of not only me, but for each other. i love that with each passing year, our bond becomes more special and stronger along the way as we mature. many many thanks to them for allowing me to open up, without any judgement. im excited for next year; the more memories we will be making and for all the trips we will be taking together!

I could tell you that waking up to texts from you definitely makes the day seem sunnier. I could tell you that when you smile for no reason when you’re looking at me it’s impossibly cute. I could tell you that when you address me by my full name for fun, I wouldn’t want those words rolling off anyone else’s tongue. I could tell you that when you held my hands because you wanted to see if I could talk without them it made me want to make exaggerated hand gestures for the rest of my life. I could tell you that I find your impromptu singing and dancing fantastic. I could tell you that merely sitting next to you is enough to cause my heart to race.
(via ventisette)

i know what i did earlier this year and some things are better left unsaid. what’s done is done, but i live with no regrets. genuine guilt, yes. but i managed to get up, brush the dirt off, and walk away with absolutely no regrets because it led me to where i am now, where i want to be. i guess you can say that i am content. before now, i’ve always felt so unsure of things and afraid to ‘let go’ and let all fall into place. yes i still am but now that i, to some extent, have let things unfold on it’s own, i feel so light-hearted and.. happy. with that being said, thank you to that special individual. for accepting me, flaws and all. for never giving up when we argue or when i am the biggest bitch in the world. for getting to know not only my parents, but my whole shabang of a family. thank you even, for walking out of my life though only for a brief moment, because it made me realize that nothing is forever and that you mean such a great deal to me. just for so much more than i can list or imagine. i’ve definitely learned from my mistakes, and so with you, ‘my little sunshine’, i am determined to uphold all that i’ve learned. ilyf&a, sealed with a pinky and lock it with a fist haha.

“With every goodbye, there will definitely be a hello. With every heartbreak, comes someone to remind you that everything will be okay. We can’t keep dwelling on things that have already happened; mistakes that were already made, and people who we hurt. We keep forgetting one thing — we’re all human. We’re all made to make mistakes. What separates mistakes from wrong decisions is making the same mistake over and over again. Wrong decisions we make can change our lives forever. If so, we just gotta make the best of what we have. New people enter our lives for a reason. Old friends and significant others drift away for a reason. With everything that happens, there’s definitely reason for it. We might not understand it now.. we might not in a while. But just know that everything will fall into place. Everything.”
(via keshialee)

regardless of all the bad times, this year was such a blast, im not even going to lie. prom, gradnite, graduating high school, all the 18th birthdays, starting college and finishing 1 out 4 terms, my debut and the 3 months of practices, and most importantly all the memories made with such wonderful company from my cousins, bestfriends, and that special someone. all in one year. so yea, there were a great handful of ‘bad’ times, but the good mosssst definitely outweigh the bad.
2010, to me, was a year of many many gratitude, testing opportunities and obstacles to figure out who i am, what i want, and who i need in my life. it was definitely hard and it hurt most of the time but i know the tears were worth it in the end. actually what am i talking about, it isn’t even the end. it has just begun, and things will only get harder. but you know what? i trust in that He will guide not only me but all of us to where we are meant to be. we just have to lift it up and eventually “everything will fall into place. everything”

so let us take our lessons learned, live for now, and conquer the future with every great intention. i wish you all the strength and blessings for a fresh new start, happy new years (eve) to everyone <3

(ps, pardon the big nye reflection post. it’s a habit of mine)

(Source: veronicaaaj, via heyvikks)

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